The Killing Emptiness

”As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I take a look at my life and realize there's not much left” - Coolio

And I

Tell myself that I’m not good enough

That I’ll never be good enough

I stop and stare into the mirror

Looking at a stranger

Someone who kept striving to be better

But always failing

I try my best

But my best is never good enough

I let people down instead of raising them up

I mess up everything I do

And don’t know how to do anything right

They keep trying to motivate me

Change my mindset

But I end up going back to square one

I lie to myself

So that I can have a bit of self confidence

Then I’m struck right back down to earth

By something someone says

I try to love myself

But how can I do that when I don’t even know where to beginning

I try to talk to God

But I always get his voicemail

I try to Look for signs that let me know, that things will get better

But I never find them

I’ve been looking for happiness

But all I feel is emptiness

Looking down a grave

Where my feelings have been buried

Nothingness just seems to dominate

Where love should’ve been

Promises to myself

End up turning into dust

I can’t continue anymore

Sensing that my end is near

What’s one more insignificant lost life

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