Thoughts At 03:00am Part 1

03:00 – You’ve done it again, you’ve kept me up by thought again. Sigh

03:01 – Tonight, I admit it, I might be insane. This time it was your wrist band, I came across it behind my night stand. It’s yellow, still coated with forensic traces of the scent of your skin.

03:02 – I don’t get waves of missing you anymore. It’s become more like tsunami tides underneath the lids of my eyes.

03:03 – maybe if i closed my eyes I could sleep you off but, that wouldn’t help either. My subconscious aches for you as much as my loins.

03:05 – I wish we never did it, I wish I hadn’t traced myself on your palms. I wish I hadn’t lost myself in the sinking ship of your skin

03:07 – You snatched my soul when I saw the glimpses of your feet touching the sky, I wish we didn’t get caught up in tangled Web we wove when we intertwined our wishes.

3:10 – but as our bodies collided, our hearts diverged, I lost myself in the flames of our lust, & I lost you, Now I’m lost too.

03:12- Our momentary lapse of romance made my heart happy, you turned mere moments into temporary forevers, I ache for another chance to lose rhythm to the sound of your voice.

03:15 – I’m going half crazy, thinking I’m on the only one that this is phasing. You wouldn’t have shot me down out the blue, you ask about me, I know you still think about me too.

03:20 – I find traces of you, in my earphones.
Even on the radio when I uber home. Somehow you’re in tune with the birds’ song too, am I crazy or are the whistling Charlie Puth?

03:21 – We don’t talk anymore, like we used to. Great! Now you & the song are both stuck in my head, I’m turning every lyric I hear into being about you.

03:22 – You said you weren’t looking, or maybe you just weren’t looking for me. If I meant so much, how’d I become null and void so easily?

03:23 – Are you lying next to somebody, who holds you like me? Is there really a good reason that you’re gone? Would you know who’s calling if I dialed your phone?

03:24 – I really wish we never did it, you slowly became every sad lyric that blasts in my ear, morphing into the waves that beat ashore my tsunami tide tears.

03:25 – Our memories suddenly match every part of Ne-Yo’s list, lengthening everytime I reminisce. It’s clear, that it’s you and not the Feeling that I miss.

03:26 – Is this what Bryson meant by a trapped soul? But I didn’t play with you, I wasn’t dishonest. If he can’t either then how will I understand this logic?

03:27 – I wish we never loved it, but what if this is it? what if this really is the end? I fear that this feeling is all I have left of you, I fear my heart won’t breathe again because my lungs long for your scent. Maybe, holding on to this pain is the closest I’ll get to holding you.

03:28 – Maybe these nocturnal tosses and turns is the only time I have left to spend with you.

03:29 – I should have listened to Trey, if we never did it, we never would have loved it, we never would have lusted & I wouldn’t have fallen into this abyss.

03:30 – We didn’t fake it, but we can’t erase it. I guess the fat lady is singing, her music is loud so let’s face it, there’s no way in hell that I can be just friends with you.

03:31 – You’ve done it again, you’ve kept me up by thought again, it’s this stupid yellow wrist band that smells like you.

*_Chucks Wrist Band_*